I relate to this one so badly. The thought of being the "first" one to finish, to escape the dark, messy forest, to swim out of the swarming waves; it's like a race that was never held, a race with no other participants other than yourself. And because of rushing, we often forget about the quality of our work.
I had this essay project months ago. Before I started working on it, I had the big picture, the main idea of what I wanted my essay to be sitting on top of my head. And the longer it sat there, the more I got to know it, and the more I unfolded its sides.
Having been in the messy middle of my upcoming project for far longer than I initially anticipated I’m finding a lot of solace in these words.
I’ve always been one to move quickly when it comes to creative projects, for many years I sped from one to another so quickly that I barely gave myself a chance to breathe.
This latest project has been a humbling lesson for me, it has shown me the alchemy that unfolds when we enter a season of rest. It has also created space for the self-doubt I’ve realised I was always running from to surface. It’s been incredibly disconcerting in moments but I’m beyond grateful for the opportunity it’s given me to witness what I had been working on with new eyes.
Thanks for sharing this, Hannah. I can feel the Chariot energy here.
I wrote a few weeks ago about being in between things, and how I've been finding that these moments seem to end up making sense for me when I look back, even though they felt like a mess at the time.
I love how you talk about sitting with the presence of it. If it's something that's going to make sense eventually, why not appreciate the feeling aspect in the moment?
This is extremely relatable. The mess of being in the middle is something I’ve been getting comfortable with myself in recent weeks. I loved how you contrast it with exacting fast-moving experiences in other places. The shift from state and way of being into the other without losing the benefit of the previous is a complex transition and I like the connection to the Chariot card you’ve made here, particularly with it being Cancer Season and just having had a New Moon in Cancer. The Chariot is a fierce protector and nurturer of what matters most forging the way forward with confidence and know-how. Perhaps because the interior of the project is so precious and clear, the Chariot does not hesitate to act when right-opportunity, aligned-possibility presents. And it deftly avoids the pitfalls. This was a timely read! Thank you!
I relate to this one so badly. The thought of being the "first" one to finish, to escape the dark, messy forest, to swim out of the swarming waves; it's like a race that was never held, a race with no other participants other than yourself. And because of rushing, we often forget about the quality of our work.
I had this essay project months ago. Before I started working on it, I had the big picture, the main idea of what I wanted my essay to be sitting on top of my head. And the longer it sat there, the more I got to know it, and the more I unfolded its sides.
Thank you for this, Hannah.
Beautiful 🤍
Having been in the messy middle of my upcoming project for far longer than I initially anticipated I’m finding a lot of solace in these words.
I’ve always been one to move quickly when it comes to creative projects, for many years I sped from one to another so quickly that I barely gave myself a chance to breathe.
This latest project has been a humbling lesson for me, it has shown me the alchemy that unfolds when we enter a season of rest. It has also created space for the self-doubt I’ve realised I was always running from to surface. It’s been incredibly disconcerting in moments but I’m beyond grateful for the opportunity it’s given me to witness what I had been working on with new eyes.
Thanks for sharing this, Hannah. I can feel the Chariot energy here.
I wrote a few weeks ago about being in between things, and how I've been finding that these moments seem to end up making sense for me when I look back, even though they felt like a mess at the time.
I love how you talk about sitting with the presence of it. If it's something that's going to make sense eventually, why not appreciate the feeling aspect in the moment?
Appreciate you.
This is extremely relatable. The mess of being in the middle is something I’ve been getting comfortable with myself in recent weeks. I loved how you contrast it with exacting fast-moving experiences in other places. The shift from state and way of being into the other without losing the benefit of the previous is a complex transition and I like the connection to the Chariot card you’ve made here, particularly with it being Cancer Season and just having had a New Moon in Cancer. The Chariot is a fierce protector and nurturer of what matters most forging the way forward with confidence and know-how. Perhaps because the interior of the project is so precious and clear, the Chariot does not hesitate to act when right-opportunity, aligned-possibility presents. And it deftly avoids the pitfalls. This was a timely read! Thank you!